Sunday, July 22, 2007

aft a long while, i finally decided to give a new post.

life have been busy and not that great for the month of june and july. 1st, renovating of my hse. ve to move around to look for furnitures and meet up with the designers to discuss with them. well, my useless sister, only know how to sit around and laze and not give comment. the only thing she knows hw to says is "oh u make the decision loh. i anything one" wtf. she is also part of the family member lah. argh.

ok. 2ndly. my restaurant attachment started! ve pass 3 weeks alr. this coming is the 4th week. 3 more weeks, we ve to shift to charcoal. jus getting use to the life of rosette and now, expect me to move to charcoal. i dun wan!! i was transfer from one grp to the other one. my current grp was fun:) esp the san ba celine. lol. and of cos. the gossipers.

hse is almost done. having a hse warming on the 29th. well, the buffet catering, i also have to bao. sian lah. all they thought was "im the most free at home. so i ve to do." fuck it.
ytd jus quarelled with my freaking ass sis and also my parents. why? i dunno how the hell they watch the tv. dunno what the press and the channel have a bit of problem. got problem also nv say. until my father realised it, he started to make a big fuss abt it. and i was awake by them. and in the end, i got the scolding. WTF!! really damn piss off.
hais.

this few days life hasnt been great. really not that great. sometime, i jus feel like dying. isnt a great solution? all the troubles, pressures u ve inside u, will jus end at 1 moment.
but if i do that, i may regret. i cant bear my parents to drop tears for me. esp my father lah. thou everytime got problem, i will get the most scolding from him. but whenever i want something, he will get it for me. well, this is life, i guess.

people thot that they really understand me. but are they? no actually. they dun understand my life. what kind of lifestyle i ve. what am i doing all the time. and most imptly, what kind of a person i am. whenever i do somthing that dont compromise them, they might gossips? i may get the blame? they will be angry with me. argh.

i jus hope someone will be there whu really understand me, will listen to my woes. but... tt person is busy. others? i dont think they will able to understand me as well as tt person.

Posted by yanAhyan at 7/22/2007 12:19:00 PM